I’ve noticed something in myself recently, something I’m a little ashamed of. Since 2013 all I’ve done is be pregnant, have kids, take care of said kids, and that’s it. I’ve become so comfortable in what I do every single day. I don’t do anything new, I don’t challenge myself at all. I haven’t really even learned anything in quite some time. I mean, I read here and there and I might learn something because I saw it on Facebook or whatever but I haven’t really learned. I haven’t had any sort of personal growth other than being a mom. Although in being a mom I have learned patience, pride, and most importantly love. I’m certainly proud of that aspect of my life but I haven’t been taking care of myself. Everything I do and everything I am is my children. I haven’t been me in such a long time that I feel like I really don’t even know myself.
I don’t have anyone to blame for it, no one has been holding me back. Just me. Also, my depression and anxiety which have become more me than I have. I’m so scared of anything new. I guess what I’m trying to say is this year I’m going to focus on me. Yes I have kids I have to take care of and other obligations but this year is about me. My kids are at an age where they don’t need my attention every second, their schedule is pretty predictable, and I can certainly find the time to take care of me.
This is my year. I know everyone thinks the whole “new year, new me” is so cheesy and cliche but I don’t care. This is going to be a year of changes.
I hope everyone has a fantastic year.
Love